I can't sleep

I know I haven't blogged in a looong time. Tonight, I can't sleep. I lost a good friend (Rebecca) this week and it reminded me so much of when I lost one of my best friends (Melissa) in 2006. As I was laying awake just now I had a song/poem (whatever) pop in my head. So I wrote it down in my journal. Thought I would share it with you:


Where are you now?


Trying to sleep
but my mind won't let me
I keep thinking about
the day that you left me
So I climb out of my bed
Look out my window towards the sky
I gaze up at the stars
and as the tears fill up my eyes
I wonder


Where are you now
and do you ever think about me
I hope that you are happy
Where are you now
are you looking down upon me
or am I too far for you to see


So many nights
I lay awake like this
Playing that phone call over in my head
"She's gone" - - they said
and I fell to my knees
to beg the Lord please
don't let this be true
and I wondered



Where are you now
and do you ever think about me
I hope that you are happy
Where are you now
are you looking down upon me
or am I too far for you to see


I'd give anything
for one more day
for a minute
for a second
just for a chance to say
I love you
I miss you
and I'd ask you


Where are you now