Wednesday, May 16, 2012
I am currently on sick leave due to almost daily migraine attacks. I'm having a really hard time dealing with being off. While I know it's the right thing for me in the end, I can't help but feel like a prisoner in my own home. You would think that I would want to celebrate my good days, but being on sick leave there is a certain stigma attached to me now. If people see me out and about, I feel like they will think I am no longer sick. Even though this is the opposite of truth, perception means a lot in the world of business. I am just struggling because I am starting to become depressed, feeling like I am locked in a cage. It feels like I am being punished for being Ill. Should I really feel bad for celebrating the healthy days? Is it a crime for me to get out there and revel in the moment being that they are few and far between? Should I be constantly looking over my shoulder, worried someone is going to see me and judge me, or worse report me assuming that I am fraudulently on leave? I don't know what to do, I feel really isolated.